Friday Five....a bit late...."Music"

1. What is your favorite song right now? Why?

Colbie Caillat's latest, "Dreams Collide." It's relaxing and absolutely haunting. You can literally taste the emotion dripping out of this song, and I love that.

2. What genre of music makes you the happiest?

Anything acoustic with meaningful, clever lyrics. You can capture so much raw emotion with just a voice and a guitar...way more so than the overprocessed crap that is playing so much on the radio these days.

3. What would you name your band and what kind of music would you play?

Not to plug my own blog here or anything, but I'd probably say Blissful Discord or something like that. It fits my life philosophy...things can get crazy and chaotic, but you better damn well enjoy the excitement.

As far as style goes, definitely lots of bling, pimped out rides, and cash flying through the air everywhere.

...or, you could just give me a guitar. I guess I'd need to learn how to play first!

4. What is your favorite lyric of all time? Why?

I thought this would be a hard question. Really, though, only one verse from one of my favorite songs comes to mind:

"All the lights on and you are alive,
But you can't point the way to your heart,
So sublime when the stars are aligned,
But you don't know,
You don't know the greatness you are..."

It's from "Blue Eyes" by Cary Brothers. It's on the Garden State Soundtrack and this verse comes up toward the end during a huge instrumental build-up. I don't know why I'm so obsessed with it. It's been in my AIM profile for a long time now. I think maybe I love this verse because part of me knows it captures a little bit of who I am.

5. What band/artist could you never live without? Why?

Let me say this first...Backstreet Boys. For real. Their music takes me back to some of the happiest moments of my life. Not to mention it's fun to dance to.

And Lifehouse...from their "No Name Face" days. That is hands-down my favorite cd, and I don't think I would be who I am without this band and this album (their first major release).

*insert maniacal laugh here*

A 16 year old seems to have declared war on me.

Moving Forward

I think the difference is that...after tonight, I want to give these girls everything I can.

Screw anyone or anything that gets in my way.

on that downswing

I don't feel okay at the moment.

Two major fights with my brother today. Feeling alienated from my family. I don't really have the energy to talk to anyone about it, because I feel like the only good it would do is solidify the fact that I need to get the hell out of here. I already know that, and there's nothing I can do in the meantime.

I want to cry my eyes out...but still, a voice in the back of my head keeps telling me that I am stronger than this. I don't know why I continue to do this to myself....let it all build up until I lash out at someone else. Big time. And THEN the tears come.

I try to live the hell out of life, because we only get one. Unfortunately, my balls to the wall attitude also applies to my emotions. I feel what I feel strongly. I think that gets me into trouble sometimes.