The Four Month Update...or so.
Wow, time has really flown by since I got on this thing to make an update.
There is so much to say.
My job is going amazingly well. I truly love my students, and looking back to when I last posted about being a first year teacher, I can honestly say that I am starting to figure it all out. And my efforts have not gone unnoticed. I've been nominated by my school for my county's First Year Teacher award, which is the biggest honor I have ever received. Just the nomination is enough, really. It means that people can see how much effort I put into what I do. My students and their success is so important to me. I just hope that I have been able to make the kind of lasting impact on some of them that pulled me into this profession in the first place.
In other news, my personal life also has picked up a bit. I am spending more time with my coworkers outside of school, and I am happy to now be able to call many of them my friends. It makes such a huge difference to have people who understand what you go through on a day-to-day basis during the week. They are such fun people, and they really have kept me going and enthusiastic over the past few months.
Which brings me to my other big life event....the boyfriend. It's been about four months by his count, a little more than three by mine. He counts from the moment we met at the bar with some mutual friends. As wonderful as it has been, I have been struggling, again to beat away my insecurities. We live about an hour apart, meaning that I really only get to see him on the weekends if he doesn't have job stuff going on. He will be going to another part of the US for six months starting at the end of May, followed by a yearlong stint in a foreign country doing intelligence analytics. We've talked about what may or may not happen when he leaves, but he seems to shy away from the topic altogether. I am trying to be a realist, but my optimism and hope freaks him out I think, to the point where I am feeling like I need to hold back a little bit...to protect myself. I know, I know, I could even list the million and one things that are wrong with that situation, but I can't help wanting to do everything I can do make this work. Even if things stay the way they are for the next two months, and we break up after he leaves, I will still consider the relationship to have been a successful one.
I need to try to get back on this thing more often. Oy. Until next time!
There is so much to say.
My job is going amazingly well. I truly love my students, and looking back to when I last posted about being a first year teacher, I can honestly say that I am starting to figure it all out. And my efforts have not gone unnoticed. I've been nominated by my school for my county's First Year Teacher award, which is the biggest honor I have ever received. Just the nomination is enough, really. It means that people can see how much effort I put into what I do. My students and their success is so important to me. I just hope that I have been able to make the kind of lasting impact on some of them that pulled me into this profession in the first place.
In other news, my personal life also has picked up a bit. I am spending more time with my coworkers outside of school, and I am happy to now be able to call many of them my friends. It makes such a huge difference to have people who understand what you go through on a day-to-day basis during the week. They are such fun people, and they really have kept me going and enthusiastic over the past few months.
Which brings me to my other big life event....the boyfriend. It's been about four months by his count, a little more than three by mine. He counts from the moment we met at the bar with some mutual friends. As wonderful as it has been, I have been struggling, again to beat away my insecurities. We live about an hour apart, meaning that I really only get to see him on the weekends if he doesn't have job stuff going on. He will be going to another part of the US for six months starting at the end of May, followed by a yearlong stint in a foreign country doing intelligence analytics. We've talked about what may or may not happen when he leaves, but he seems to shy away from the topic altogether. I am trying to be a realist, but my optimism and hope freaks him out I think, to the point where I am feeling like I need to hold back a little bit...to protect myself. I know, I know, I could even list the million and one things that are wrong with that situation, but I can't help wanting to do everything I can do make this work. Even if things stay the way they are for the next two months, and we break up after he leaves, I will still consider the relationship to have been a successful one.
I need to try to get back on this thing more often. Oy. Until next time!
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