Monday, September 28, 2009

New Ideals?

Ever gotten the chance to live your dream? I mean, really live it.

I am finally self-sufficient, living on my own, paying (with my own money!) for the path I'm paving, and doing a job I've waited years to do.

And yet, I'm not as happy as I feel like I should be. In true haze fashion, I've thrown myself into my job instead of working through why that is...at the expense of personal time with friends and an empty kitchen pantry.

I swore to myself this would not happen again. After student teaching, I promised not to drown again. But it's happening. This can't be who I am.

Now, I'm off. Because I have to go do all that stuff I'm not supposed to. I'll have to figure it out on the weekends.