Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

I am so used to dating assholes that being with a genuinely nice, caring guy makes me feel a little bit stagnant. I don't have to be on the defensive all the time, ready for the next biting remark to be flung my way and waiting armed with an equally hurtful quip. I think part of me was once really attracted to that unpredictability.

And it's made me realize, being with A is a lot more than a fresh start. I am redefining my entire conceptualization of what it means to be in a relationship, and starting to see how it feels to be truly fulfilled and legitimized as a person and an equal partner.

We had one of those BIG conversations today...the type that you hold off on until you really feel comfortable and ready to have it. The kind that either confirms everything or sends the poor guy out the door. I am hoping that someone out there catches my drift without me having to divulge much more than that. But it went really well. It was easy, and comfortable...and that was nice.