One. Forward.
I got the job at the campus bookstore. After a minor freak-out from waking up at 10:30 for an 11:00 interview, I got there right in the nick of time and spoke to both managers. I start Monday, and I'm really excited to have a job that is going to get me out of the house and back on campus. Hopefully I can figure out a way to keep working there during the spring semester, just to have a little bit more cash flow.
Yesterday was tough for me. I spent the day with BG because her boyfriend broke up with her and she was a mess. It was hard to see her falling apart, even more so because she reminded me so much of myself four months ago. The denial, the lack of sleep, the unwillingness to eat or do anything to keep herself healthy. I kept telling her that she would be okay, but (again, like me) she didn't believe it. Not yet, at least. Before I left to go to rehearsal, she started crying really hard and it broke my heart to leave her like that. She called me today to talk more. I love that I can be there for her...but I feel inept at giving advice on break-ups because so much of what I say are things I should be doing myself.
Rehearsal was just as frustrating last night. I came in with so much negative energy from being with BG all day that the setbacks we had pushed me over the edge. Everyone was tired and cranky, especially me. I find it can be tough to get them to take me seriously. Sometimes I have to argue to get control. I don't know...I'm not that much older than them...I hope that's all it is, and not so much a reflection of the type of job I'm doing. Still, it makes me question things.
Things got better afterwards though. I found myself just driving around for a while, trying to clear my head. I didn't want to go home but I had no one to talk to. So I went to A's apartment in Rockville. Turns out he's a really good listener too, even though he had NO idea what I was talking about half the time. A bowl of ice cream and some cuddles later, I felt a lot better. So much positive energy comes from him, making me really glad that I decided to stop by.
Today, besides landing the new job, was good because I met up with my old friend E who I hadn't spoken to or seen in three years. We got coffee and caught each other up on our lives. We were best friends up until high school, when we started to drift apart. We have always had a really unique bond though. No matter how much time passes, we are able to blend back into each other's lives so quickly. We made tentative plans for me to go up and spend a weekend with her later on this semester, which I am really excited about. I am looking forward to having her back in my life. It wasn't quite the same without her.
But yeah, enough of my babbling. Time to enjoy my weekend :)
Yesterday was tough for me. I spent the day with BG because her boyfriend broke up with her and she was a mess. It was hard to see her falling apart, even more so because she reminded me so much of myself four months ago. The denial, the lack of sleep, the unwillingness to eat or do anything to keep herself healthy. I kept telling her that she would be okay, but (again, like me) she didn't believe it. Not yet, at least. Before I left to go to rehearsal, she started crying really hard and it broke my heart to leave her like that. She called me today to talk more. I love that I can be there for her...but I feel inept at giving advice on break-ups because so much of what I say are things I should be doing myself.
Rehearsal was just as frustrating last night. I came in with so much negative energy from being with BG all day that the setbacks we had pushed me over the edge. Everyone was tired and cranky, especially me. I find it can be tough to get them to take me seriously. Sometimes I have to argue to get control. I don't know...I'm not that much older than them...I hope that's all it is, and not so much a reflection of the type of job I'm doing. Still, it makes me question things.
Things got better afterwards though. I found myself just driving around for a while, trying to clear my head. I didn't want to go home but I had no one to talk to. So I went to A's apartment in Rockville. Turns out he's a really good listener too, even though he had NO idea what I was talking about half the time. A bowl of ice cream and some cuddles later, I felt a lot better. So much positive energy comes from him, making me really glad that I decided to stop by.
Today, besides landing the new job, was good because I met up with my old friend E who I hadn't spoken to or seen in three years. We got coffee and caught each other up on our lives. We were best friends up until high school, when we started to drift apart. We have always had a really unique bond though. No matter how much time passes, we are able to blend back into each other's lives so quickly. We made tentative plans for me to go up and spend a weekend with her later on this semester, which I am really excited about. I am looking forward to having her back in my life. It wasn't quite the same without her.
But yeah, enough of my babbling. Time to enjoy my weekend :)
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