I can't get Taylor Swift's new song "Love Song" out of my head. This may be a bad sign...because after last year, I stopped believing in the cliche. I am afraid that I am expecting it again.

At dinner last night with my roommates, one of our mutual friends asked me if I had a boyfriend. When I said no, she replied with "but you always have one!"

Have I really become that girl? The one who needs to have a guy around so people will recognize me? Is it so impossible to accept my identity without someone in my life?

I am too afraid to even talk about the person I am interested in. I can see it in their eyes...they'll shake their heads and say "Here she goes again..."

I am just trying to find the magic I used to have. Maybe they just haven't loved the way I once did, because once you have had that, you want it back. Bad. But maybe it really is my logic that's fucked up.