I am in a funk. I feel restless, lonely, futile. This has nothing to do with a lack of "boy"...but a lack of much of anyone. There a few who (thankfully!) are sticking with me right now, which I appreciate more than they realize but I need something unexpectedly awesome to happen to me.

The major problem is that I don't have time to do something that makes me feel good about myself. Okay haze, so MAKE time. Pfft. That would require me to desert something else, the lack of which would make me feel even worse about myself. So that's lose-lose.

I am sending up a plea to karma. If I work really hard and keep trying to be a good person, can you please hit me back with some of your good favor, beyond the things that I see coming? Because those moments don't seem to matter that much to me right now.

I want my relationship with my roommates to not be awkward anymore. I want my close friends to call me to check in, not the other way around. I want to be invited to things, even if I can't go, just to see that someone thought of me.

I am asking too much. I am too busy to be available enough to anyone so they'll want to be available to me.

I'm being melodramatic, stupid, and I'm wallowing. But can a gal please get SOMETHING here??