Just...to...slow.........down.

Okay, so I went into panic mode.

Sometimes as I am juggling all of these balls in the air, I look up and freak out over the sheer number of them. School, teaching, work, guard, boyfriend, best friends, social life, sleep, alone time --all whirling around in a continuous, blurring cycle. I think what I forget sometimes is the fact that, so far, I have kept them all going, all spinning. Whatever I am doing to prevent myself from going completely insane, it is working. I am operating on auto-pilot, but I think I'm doing a pretty damn good job of it. No one can believe how I am able to do what I need to do without making myself sick. I'm not sure how either...but I'm just going to keep moving forward and hope there isn't some huge obstacle in the distance that would make me trip up and lose everything.

But now, I have to go. I have things to do ;)