Shadows and Sunshine

I feel restless. It's odd because I know that there are a lot of things that I could (and should!) be doing right now. I just can't motivate myself.

I have too much on my mind, I think. Housing issues for next year, schoolwork, being more involved in guard things, planning for Code Red, balancing my social realms, improving my writing...I need more time to myself where I don't actually NEED to be doing something. Where I can just sit here and stare at the wall, reveling in the fact that I can blissfully do nothing.

Upsides...because positivity is key right now:
New friends, going out on the weekends, a really unexpected (but good!) grade on a paper, spending time with Chris, hanging out with my mom....


It's just...hard. One of my favorite things to say to myself is to "keep on truckin'", but I never really get cleared of the clutter. I wonder how long I can keep my head above the water here before I have a massive breakdown. But maybe that's what I need. Sometimes that helps.

Blah.