I'm not even three days into my new apartment, and I can feel myself slipping back into my old patterns. Around people I don't know, I become very reserved, merely sliding into the background. The kind of girl that just blends in. It's why I wasn't good friends with my roommate last year, not because I didn't like her (though that's what I tell people to cover my own ass), but because a lot of times it was just easier for me to stick my head in the sand and hide.

And with all of this guard stuff going on, I just have yet another excuse not to come out of my shell. I have to stop. I do NOT want this to be another St. Mary's situation--where I wind up with three or four close friends that become my "comfort bubble". I need to branch out and get to know that people that I'm going to have to live with. I know that I'll like them, and I hope that they'll like me too.

I have stupid fears. And I think I might have too much on my plate. Scratch that, I know I do.

Someone is going to have to get let down, and that sucks.

Sappy comments that give me hope would be greatly appreciated.